But it always ends badly and in one place… prison! This time it’s different though, I know I need to find another way for myself and for my kids.
Since being in prison I have got myself on a drug-free wing, I’ve got a Key worker from Phoenix, we have one-to-ones which have really helped me start to understand myself better. I like being around the Phoenix team, they give me an insight into what it’s like to live a different ‘normal’ life.
The environment is really positive here, I've been doing yoga and mindfulness. The groups have helped me get an understanding of my addiction and taught me the tools I will need to stay away from drugs in the future.
I’m just taking it one day at a time, I don’t want to give myself any expectations as I’m still a bit scared that my dreams won’t come true. I just want to be happy to enjoy the small things.
I’m learning to love myself, enjoy my own company so that I can be independent and build a life for myself and my kids.